a little bit of everything.

i know,
that i could always count on you.
*smiles.

i realised that i'm indeed foolish,
so very foolish,
i know of no one other than you,
and yet you are looking at someone else,
you have no idea how i'm feeling deep inside.

i would not be in your days,
i would not be in your memories either,
only you,
who have managed to catch my eye,
and i suddenly feel the tears swimming in the rim of my eyes,
threatening to fall like a endless water fall.

as i watch you walk right pass me,
somehow i still feel happy,
even though you still have no clue about what my heart has to say,
i should stop this and walk away.

i'm withstanding the pain each day,
the words,
"i love you" dancing on my lips,
alone once again,
missing you.

spontaneous write above,
i must say,
extracted the idea from a korean song,
my words are in it.

each day,
i see some of my friends getting hurt,
their gloomy faces,
their emotional side taking over.

i wonder,
why is it so hard just to love someone?
why does the word pain come together with it?
is it a package?
a package that is under your own risk to lift?

i dislike so much to see my friends get hurt,
let alone breakdown in front of me,
i wish that all the pain that their holding inside,
would just go away and never come back.

spent half of my day in central kedah literally. along with my friends - brian drove, darius enjoyed being the passenger. we were there for almost 12 hours. roaming around the streets with nothing much to do. ended up in jae yung's house, drinking alcohol and watching a movie. snuggled up back in the couch. i was so tired and sleepy.

had thai dinner, for what they said was most famous there.

and now that exam is coming, i've gotta put my full concentration in my studies. hope i'll get better results this time, much statisfying results.

love;
- jocelyn -