clueless.

during those times when i thought about you,
i often tell myself that everything would be fine, when nothing ever was.

class had just ended for today.
alone in my room, sitting at my desk while typing at the same time, i looked out my window to see my peers with their respective hand carries waiting downstairs to go home. i chose to stay back here in campus this week although that means i would have to wash my own clothes.

i not too satisfied with the way things are for me.
but one day, i know i would have to accept it no matter what.

today, after breakfast i went back to find you not in your seat. i looked to see whether or not you were with the lecturer in front asking him questions maybe. but you were not as well. i was indeed wondering where you could have gone for this short half an hour. but then i turned around and caught a glimpse of the white shirt you were wearing today and as i looked up to see it was you, you looked back at me, smiling while talking to your friends. when i caught your eyes, i immediately turned back around quietly trailing behind my friends to our seats without a hush. it wasn't until i was in my seat once again when i started talking.

i didn't know what to do.

FYI i'm not emo alright?
have been having the urge to smile today.
and i don't know why?

take care.

love;
- jocelyn -