not over.
Thursday, August 12, 2010 at11:24 PM
the moment i stepped into registration hall today,
i knew immediately that medicine was not within my grasps anymore.
the further i go, the further i am to my dream.
sadness dawn upon me when the realization of letting my dreams go just like that, finally struck my mind.
i stood right there staring into space.
and i wondered how is it going to be like for me in future.
will i succeed like how i want to if i become a doctor?
will i succeed better this way?
watching other medical students with green eyes is the only thing i would be able to do now.
but i would not let that stop me from achieving success in my own field.
i plan to achieve better.
i want to achieve better.
but for now, i would have to convince my heart that i'm never going to be a doctor.
i could only watch others become one.
perhaps i could let my consciousness drift away to fantasy for awhile.
for i would make use of that time,
to watch myself help a needy life or perhaps bringing a new life into this world.
but no, this is reality.
and i would have to accept that.
whether i like it or not.
love;
- jocelyn -
i knew immediately that medicine was not within my grasps anymore.
the further i go, the further i am to my dream.
sadness dawn upon me when the realization of letting my dreams go just like that, finally struck my mind.
i stood right there staring into space.
and i wondered how is it going to be like for me in future.
will i succeed like how i want to if i become a doctor?
will i succeed better this way?
watching other medical students with green eyes is the only thing i would be able to do now.
but i would not let that stop me from achieving success in my own field.
i plan to achieve better.
i want to achieve better.
but for now, i would have to convince my heart that i'm never going to be a doctor.
i could only watch others become one.
perhaps i could let my consciousness drift away to fantasy for awhile.
for i would make use of that time,
to watch myself help a needy life or perhaps bringing a new life into this world.
but no, this is reality.
and i would have to accept that.
whether i like it or not.
love;
- jocelyn -