what if i need you, baby?

whoa.
after days of disappearance, i'm back again.
woohoo!

alright. i'm not supposed to be this hyper right now,
i just completed my darn bio proposal. :)
tiring.

i feel really, really tired with everything nowadays.
technically, everything means reality.
i worry too much,
i'm sensitive,
i get it.

sitting on my comfortable bed, i thought of everything that brings me these stress.
a comfortable bed suddenly became not-so-comfortable anymore when these things come to mind.
i'm sick of being emo.
i've said this before, i'm not a person who would go emo like this.
i used to be a girl who always wears a smile on her face.
i miss the me before.
so much.

in order to stop myself from getting all emo,
i distract myself all the time when i feel that 'it' is coming near me.
i even have a strand or two grey hair on my scalp now. (AHHHH!)
i was not the girl who had even a strand of grey hair even if i'm stressed out.

my stomach is killing me these days.
darius had to splash water on me, florence had to pull my hair and chew wenyin had to give brian a call just to get me into a car to a clinic.
LOL.
but i still managed to escape.
hah.

swt.
i'm speechless.
i'm still hyper right now.
i'm mad.

love;
- jocelyn -