2010

after weeks of dissapearance,
i've yet again, realized.

its really funny,
when one minute you feel on top of the world,
and the next, you fall flat onto the ground.

i can say that i truly despise this feeling.
i do not want to fall back onto the ground.
i want to remain on top of the world,
on top of MY own world at least.

so why can't i remain on top?
that's the heartbreaking question that i've gotta ask.

another year has gone by,
2009 closes with a nice ending to it about 2 days ago.
i wish i could have a new year resolution like everyone else.
i wish i could have one that i could make it happen.
but sadly,
i have none.

all i wish for this entire year is for all the fun i could get,
all filled with joy, laughter and love,
shared with my loved ones.

i pray for everything to be back to normal,
so that i do not have to worry much,
so that it would have peace to everything,
so that my loved ones would be protected,
so that everyone would be happy.

i don't hope for anything more even now that December's gone.
i do not want to be that vulnerable anymore.
i hope.

i just want to be happy.
i just want to be able to smile all the time.
can anyone just grant me that?

love;
- jocelyn -