please, just stop it.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 at5:20 PM
if it means being friends is the only think i could do,
i would gladly accept it.
as long as you are a part of my life, i'll be okay.
am currently writing my bio report that i would have to soon hand up,
but something gave me the urge to blog.
i have been doing a lot of thinking these few days, mainly after the call with my aunt last weekend.
i'm still worried about how my not-so-little-anymore cousin sister is doing right now, i want the best for her.
i want the best for her even though sometimes she might be thinking;
that i'm acting more like her mum than her elder cousin sister,
that i'm the so-called grandma to her due to my often "tale" tellings,
that i'm always not on her side.
it hurt me so much when she said i didn't care. that she didn't know that i cared so much.
because of that, i shed a tear or two.
we grew up together, lived together for more than 10 years.
before my sister was born, she was already like a sister to me. being ever so supportive - i was the naughty one - she would always be there to step up for me whenever i burst into tears or when i refuse to own up when i did a mistake.
along her schooling life in penang, i know it was not an easy one for her.
being betrayed by her so-called best friend? yeah right!
i want her to return to the old her that i missed so dearly.
return to the old her that will never doubt her parents' love for her,
the old her that would joke and play around with me,
the old her that will never go against any of the adults,
the old her that would always be there for me like she used to.
i want so badly for her to awake from this terrible nightmare have been haunting her. a nightmare that is haunting us all as well. i wish that she could just open her eyes and look into a new day, where she can find a absolute better love.
someone that would not hurt her indirectly like this,
someone who will treat her right and with love in the correct way.
tearing down,
i want so much to let her know that the whole family will be behind her no matter what happens. we ARE a family afterall. we look out for one another.
i ♥ her.
and i would always want the best for her.
praying and hoping this will all end,
a nightmare that is never near a beautiful one,
i pray that everything would be ok,
i pray.
love;
- jocelyn -
i would gladly accept it.
as long as you are a part of my life, i'll be okay.
am currently writing my bio report that i would have to soon hand up,
but something gave me the urge to blog.
i have been doing a lot of thinking these few days, mainly after the call with my aunt last weekend.
i'm still worried about how my not-so-little-anymore cousin sister is doing right now, i want the best for her.
i want the best for her even though sometimes she might be thinking;
that i'm acting more like her mum than her elder cousin sister,
that i'm the so-called grandma to her due to my often "tale" tellings,
that i'm always not on her side.
it hurt me so much when she said i didn't care. that she didn't know that i cared so much.
because of that, i shed a tear or two.
we grew up together, lived together for more than 10 years.
before my sister was born, she was already like a sister to me. being ever so supportive - i was the naughty one - she would always be there to step up for me whenever i burst into tears or when i refuse to own up when i did a mistake.
along her schooling life in penang, i know it was not an easy one for her.
being betrayed by her so-called best friend? yeah right!
i want her to return to the old her that i missed so dearly.
return to the old her that will never doubt her parents' love for her,
the old her that would joke and play around with me,
the old her that will never go against any of the adults,
the old her that would always be there for me like she used to.
i want so badly for her to awake from this terrible nightmare have been haunting her. a nightmare that is haunting us all as well. i wish that she could just open her eyes and look into a new day, where she can find a absolute better love.
someone that would not hurt her indirectly like this,
someone who will treat her right and with love in the correct way.
tearing down,
i want so much to let her know that the whole family will be behind her no matter what happens. we ARE a family afterall. we look out for one another.
i ♥ her.
and i would always want the best for her.
praying and hoping this will all end,
a nightmare that is never near a beautiful one,
i pray that everything would be ok,
i pray.
love;
- jocelyn -