i'm a big girl now, so let me be. please.

things happen for a reason,
for a reason i do not know whether,
is it positive or negative.

after giving much thoughts,
i found myself lost in confusion again,
not knowing what to do,
not knowing which is right.

but then i thought,
why should i care about all these?
i'll do what i want,
as long as i'm happy,
as long as i know that i would have no regrets.

i've come to realize that the life i'm living,
is not a fairytale that would have a perfect ending,
where Cinderella and her prince charming,
lived their happily ever after.

neither would i be given the chance,
the chance to live my very own,
happily ever after.

"what was i thinking all these while?"
i asked myself,
i know now that all i want is to be happy,
all i want is for you to be happy.

i'll live the life i'm living right now,
creating as much memories that i can with you,
because i know that one day,
you will eventually have a place in my heart,
though i know that i would not have mine in yours.

...all these,
just because,
i am stupid.

love;
- jocelyn -