tell me why?

its hurts so much that i have to realise the fact that...
i'm just not good enough for you.

i truly apologize for the so called 'emo-ness' in my blog these days. i wasn't emo at first, really, just that feeling of disappointment for some people who i really cared for thats all.

but then again, i have to admit that never, never in my life had i been this emo. never. i, too, missed the old jocelyn i used to be. its just, whenever i start gaining my mood back, then comes another problem for me.

is this part of growing up? i wonder.

skipped dinner yesterday because i felt something was not right. i'm right i guess. because even i had skipped that dinner yesterday, i knew what happen during then. if i am allowed to choose, i choose to not know instead of knowing the truth. like people always say, its better to know less than to know more. i agree with that.

right now, my mind is blank. i don't know what to think anymore. why are you still haunting my thoughts? i know clearly that none of this will work out. so why? why are you so hard to forget? its not that i haven't tried. i failed in doing that. badly. i feel so dumb for that.

and then i realised something,
i'm just not good enough for you.
right?

once again, i'm sorry for all this 'emo-ing'.

love;
- jocelyn -