surprisingly, i'm ok.

something tells me that everything is ok,
though i don't feel that way, i believe it is.

yesterday night was one of the best i've had. played, laughed, cam-whored, everything.

today, i've yet again heard things that are not going my way. but surprisingly, i'm still ok after all that stuff. it was like she never said anything to wenyin and wenyin didn't tell me anything she was supposed to. it was like i just woke up from a wonderful night and nothing had happened for the day.

i love my friends for being there whenever i need them.
call me clingy or whatever because that's how i am treating them over here. without them i just do not know how to handle certain situations anymore. because, with just the small talk we had not long ago, i managed to ignore everything that i was feeling earlier, in other words, i was feeling emo side of me.

am glad that i managed to ignore it too. makes me feel a hundred times better. my friends were right. i mean, why should i feel the need to compare with her? i'm me and i'll be the jocelyn that i am.

i don't care what anyone says about you.
you are the one who decides things on your own. not me, not her, not my friends, not your friends. its you. i'm told not to lay high hopes on you and believe me i don't want to. that i think, explains my insecurity.

right now, 'let it be' is the only thing i'll do though my friends believe that i'm not feeling that way on the inside. oh well. i'll just stick to what wenyin told me. :)

despite the exaggeration of my actions earlier this evening,
i didn't think that i let anything get to my head,
because right now,
i'm more than just satisfied.

love;
- jocelyn -