happy.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009 at12:57 AM
just the night before yesterday, when tears stream down my face,
it was the first time when i actually had no thoughts about me wanting you to be here running through my mind.
i know i should be sleeping now. i'm tired too. but i couldn't resist the urge to blog today.
(monday)
had been really happy today regardless of what that has happened the night before. this morning, i entered the lecture hall today and spotted you in your seat. i then saw my friends seated in just the row in front of you. got to my seat and greeted my friends like usual. i wanted to ignore you today. i avoided myself from turning around for even a tiny little fraction just to steal a glance or two from you.
and i did it today. i managed to ignore you.
somehow, i feel different on the inside. today, i got a feeling like as if you are a stranger to me. like someone i didn't know of. i wanted so badly at that time to figure out why, but each time when i think of the time when i saw you and her both together, i would just stop thinking any further.
my friends are telling me to forget you, and deep down, i actually wish to do the same as well.
but do you really want me to forget you like you said?
because today, i hadn't been thinking of you at all.
there, i know i had mentioned earlier that i was happy but i know, wth was that then right? sorry again. i just need something to release all that from me. my day today had been rather enjoyable, really. occupied myself from thinking about all those stuff again. it worked and i'm glad.
had fun with the girlfriends and the boys after class. even during class ifself, we had our little own so-called mini party. don't ask, we were just too hungry at that time. anyway, i was actually not up for any recreation after class. i was so freaking tired and it was just a monday. but anyhow, the girls got me changing into my sports attire with their words of saying we should not be lazy, you're getting fatter and etc.
went over by foot to the sports complex and boy, it was so darn hot. we were supposed to play basketball in the outdoor court. like wth? sat at the entrance and waited awhile. i didn't want to go over to the courtside at first but then, wenyin had to drag me there (FYI she really did drag me there ok?). of course, i was no match for her and i had to obligdge numbly. :(
played till dinner time when we decided we would be joining darius and the rest for dinner. korean food *drools. but we ended up with thai food in the end - the korean food shop was apparently closed. didn't really care much. i just wanted good food! *YUM.
am tired right now. so very tired in fact.
but i felt happy today.
thanks guys. a lot. :)
love;
- jocelyn -
it was the first time when i actually had no thoughts about me wanting you to be here running through my mind.
i know i should be sleeping now. i'm tired too. but i couldn't resist the urge to blog today.
(monday)
had been really happy today regardless of what that has happened the night before. this morning, i entered the lecture hall today and spotted you in your seat. i then saw my friends seated in just the row in front of you. got to my seat and greeted my friends like usual. i wanted to ignore you today. i avoided myself from turning around for even a tiny little fraction just to steal a glance or two from you.
and i did it today. i managed to ignore you.
somehow, i feel different on the inside. today, i got a feeling like as if you are a stranger to me. like someone i didn't know of. i wanted so badly at that time to figure out why, but each time when i think of the time when i saw you and her both together, i would just stop thinking any further.
i've come to realized that it is not worth it.
my friends are telling me to forget you, and deep down, i actually wish to do the same as well.
but do you really want me to forget you like you said?
because today, i hadn't been thinking of you at all.
there, i know i had mentioned earlier that i was happy but i know, wth was that then right? sorry again. i just need something to release all that from me. my day today had been rather enjoyable, really. occupied myself from thinking about all those stuff again. it worked and i'm glad.
had fun with the girlfriends and the boys after class. even during class ifself, we had our little own so-called mini party. don't ask, we were just too hungry at that time. anyway, i was actually not up for any recreation after class. i was so freaking tired and it was just a monday. but anyhow, the girls got me changing into my sports attire with their words of saying we should not be lazy, you're getting fatter and etc.
went over by foot to the sports complex and boy, it was so darn hot. we were supposed to play basketball in the outdoor court. like wth? sat at the entrance and waited awhile. i didn't want to go over to the courtside at first but then, wenyin had to drag me there (FYI she really did drag me there ok?). of course, i was no match for her and i had to obligdge numbly. :(
played till dinner time when we decided we would be joining darius and the rest for dinner. korean food *drools. but we ended up with thai food in the end - the korean food shop was apparently closed. didn't really care much. i just wanted good food! *YUM.
am tired right now. so very tired in fact.
but i felt happy today.
thanks guys. a lot. :)
love;
- jocelyn -