no drama, no life.

i'm very much afraid that,
if i allow myself to fall further, i might end up hurting myself.

*sigh

this week. although its not officially the end of the week yet, so far, i think it is one of the worst weeks i've ever experienced.

i had been happy during the start of the week. no kidding. i have. but then as the week approaches, everything that happened around me was just killing my happy mood again. sad much? i was just going to enjoy myself already at first.

yesterday was a whole different story than today. yet another potential heartbreaking something happened today (wed). sometimes, i wish that i can take a break from reality. its so that i do not have to face all these dramas and problems that are currently challenging me just to bring me down.

i saw what i have to see today. i just did not expect to see it so quickly thats all.

i do not know what was the real situation in the past.
but the one thing i know is that; i will not allow myself to appear this weak anymore. that smile and the 'normal' bubbly behavior earlier this evening was so hard put on. i would have to try and learn how to be strong in some situations. just like ash at one point. we are girls, afterall. we get hurt easily too.

i do know that my girlfriends knows whats really happening and i really thank them for everything.

especially just simply being there for me whenever i feel down.

PS : looking forward to a happy weekend.
PSS : i wanna go home!
PSSS : i know i should be sleeping now. so NIGHTS ppl!! :)

love;
- jocelyn -