its the littlest things that you do,

(even without you knowing sometimes)
that will drag the corner of my lips up into a smile.

am i falling further?

hey guys. i'm totally sorry about the 'emo' post last week. i didn't want to publish it at first, too private. but oh well. anyways, i had been happier these two days and believe me i don't exactly know why. i just do. hormones much maybe? nah. i don't really think so. :)

came across something today, it was actually not supposed to happen. don't know why it did too. this something totally crushed my happy mood. emo again? nope. i won't go emo because of this. its not worth it.

anyways, from today's incident i too learnt something from it. my mom always tells me not to put too much trust on someone. because knowing me, i would give my 100% trust on that person if i think that person is reliable. but sometimes, i just gotta listen to my dearest mommy. we wouldn't know how someone is really like until something happens. something bad i mean.

just so you know, i'm not emo or anything right now. just dissapointed. really.
(i treated you as a brother that i had always wanted to have you know)

after talking on the phone with my mom just awhile ago, i now know that i've still got lots to learn to mature more. i give people my trust easily, but too bad, some people just do not know how to appreciate it. but once its gone, its gone. if you lose my trust, then i'm sorry. you will have no chance to gain it back.

its hard to believe that someone you trust so much can betray you like that. one minute you are ok, eating and talking together and then in the next minute, all these drama comes after you. ahhh! i feel so irritated by that fact.

anyways, i'm already okay with the fact. gotta except it though. gosh. i'm rambling. *blek.

lecture tmr. :(

till then;
- jocelyn -